You can take the chef out of the kitchen

But you can't take the kitchen out of the chef.

I know this was a weird way to start this blog, but it's my Wednesday food blog, anything goes. 

I'm having a hard time being a stay at home mom,  I've always worked and I have worked hard.  As a chef, I worked 60,70,80 hour weeks and it was wonderful.  I felt like I was someone, I felt like I was doing something.  

Chef life, pre pregnancy, look at all of that belly!

Chef life, pre pregnancy, look at all of that belly!

Being a SAHM, I often get lost in just being a mom, until I get into the kitchen.  When I start thinking about recipes, execution, presentation, menus, I start feeling like I am normal again.  The chef in me has been here much longer than the mom has been in me.

My mind can wonder off when I am really depressed or anxious or, well really any time.  It goes into the kitchen, flavors that I haven't tasted yet, dishes that I dream of making, pictures that I want to take, chefs that I want to meet, and dreams that I have.  The only difference between me doing this before and now, is that Braedon fits into all of my dreams.

Never did I ever believe that one day, something or someone would matter more than my career.  Not that I'm completely giving up my career, it just changed now.  I have different dreams.  I want my blog to be successful, I want to take beautiful photographs of food, and I want to teach my son to cook and love food.

Cheffing at an Android catering event!

Cheffing at an Android catering event!

Today was really good, except I missed my doctor's appointment.  Braedon and I walked almost 5 miles, stopped and shared some Thai food, and really enjoyed the heat wave that we had today.  We even got to have a picnic with our friend tonight.

They are bff's, can't you feel the love?

They are bff's, can't you feel the love?

I needed a day out, I get so lost in my head and what I need to get done, that I forget to make myself happy.  Going out for long walks and lunch out is really good for me sometimes.

Baby is feeling the grass, he loves it!

Baby is feeling the grass, he loves it!

Tonight when I got home I made this amazing pasta dish.  It was an artichoke, sun dried, penne in a lemon and red pepper sauce with shrimp.  I had to multitask and get my little man to bed while I was cooking, so I was really afraid that I was going to mess it up, but no, it tasted amazing.

I have started to really utilize my twitter and instagram the last couple of days and to be honest, I have 'met' some amazing chefs and home cooks.  I am so happy to be able to interact with people who do the same things as me.

I know that this was a ramble of a post, but I miss being in the professional kitchen.  This is an ode to the kitchen.

P.S- We are touring an apartment tomorrow, I am so excited!